ALTHOUGH I HAVE SPENT much of the past three years reporting for the Los Angeles Times on our drift toward nuclear war, there are times when I still lose my sense of the utter devastation that lies behind the sterile acronyms by which these modern weapons are described. The words have grown stale after nearly four decades of so-called "strategic" development. We hear about SLCMs and MIRVs [Sea-Launched Cruise Missiles and Multiple Independently-targeted Reentry Vehicles, which carry more than a single warhead, usually ten], or of that weird hodgepodge of nuclear-war-fighting strategies the window of vulnerability, the first-strike senarios, the city-strips and after a while the mind doesn't react with the appropriate horror.
|The question of universal death grows stale partly because the arguments are often unnecessarily complex, rely on insider's lingo and use terms that pointedly mute just what it is these bombs do, which is, to start with, to kill the people one loves and nearly everyone else as well.||I didn't want to see a little one. A little one? Ten k? I mean come on, let's get serious. I was a kid.|
This man had conducted some of the most important CIA studies on the Soviets and nuclear war. Now in his middle years, still youthful in manner, clean-cut and obviously patriotic, the father of a Marine on active duty, he recently left the CIA to join a company that works for that agency, and so I cannot use his name.
HE TOLD ME ABOUT THIS EXPERIENCE of his youth because he was frightened by the Reagan Administration's casual talk about waging and winning a nuclear war. He thought the Reagan people did not really comprehend what kind of a weapon the bomb was, and so as an illustration he told me about his own earlier experience with the bomb when he was a lieutenant in the Navy and had seen a bomb go off near Christmas Island in the Pacific.
Years later at the CIA he had worked with computer models that detail the number of fatalities likely to result from various nuclear war targeting scenarios. But to bring a measure of reality to these computer projections, he would return in his mind as he did now to that time in the Pacific.
|They weren't vaporized, it's just that they were absorbing such intense radiation that they were being consumed by the heat. Their feathers were on fire. They were blinded.||"The birds were the things we could see all the time. They were superb specimens of life ... really quite exquisite ... phenomenal creatures Albatrosses will fly for days, skimming a few inches above the surface of the water. These birds have tremendously long wings and tails, and beaks that are as if fashioned for another purpose. You don't see what these birds are about from their design, they are just beautiful creatures. Watching them is a wonder. That's what I didn't expect ...|
THE FORMER CIA ANALYST PAUSED to observe that the size of the bomb to be exploded was 10 k, or 10 kilotons, the equivalent explosive power of 10,000 tons of of TNT. The two bombs dropped at Hiroshima and Nagasaki were 13 kt. and 23 kt. respectively. Now such bombs are mere tactical or battlefield weapons. [Standard-issue weapons commonly found in tanks and manned mobile guns.] Many of the bombs to be used in any U.S. Soviet nuclear war are measured in megatons, millions of tons of TNT.
He went on with his account:
"I didn't want to see a little one. A little one? Ten k? I mean come on, let's get serious. I was a kid. Anyway, we were standing around, and the countdown comes in over the radio. And we knew roughly where the designated ground zero would be and about how high.
"And suddenly I could see all these birds, I could see the birds that I'd been watching for days before. They were now suddenly visible though the opaque visor of my helmet. And they were smoking. Their feathers were on fire. And they were doing cartwheels. And the light persisted for some time. It was instantaneously bright but wasn't instantaneous, because it stayed and it changed composition slightly. Several seconds, it seemed like, long enough for me to see birds crash into the water. They were sizzling, smoking. They weren't vaporized, it's just that they were absorbing such intense radiation that they were being consumed by the heat. Their feathers were on fire. They were blinded.
"And so far there had been no shock, none of the blast damage we talk about when we discuss the effects of nuclear weapons. Instead there were just these smoking, twisting, hideously contorted birds crashing into things. And then I could see vapor rising from the inner lagoon as the surface of the water was heated by this intense flash.
"Now this isn't a primary effect of the weapon, it is an initial kind of effect that precedes other things, although it is talked about and you can see evidence of it in the Hiroshima blast and in Nagasaki outlines of people on bridges where they stood when the bomb dropped. But that initial thermal radiation is a phenomenon that is unlike any other weapon I've seen. I never seen anything like that.
The men who now dominate the Reagan Administration and who hold that nuclear war is survivable would surely wonder what these reflections have to do with the struggle against the Soviet Union. But what my CIA friend was telling me is that these birds are us and they never had a chance.